I had a dream, where the pursuit of healing became organised around eliminating discomfort. Healing itself then became another form of preoccupation...
I asked myself, maybe I lose other paths of healing by focusing on the opposite solution or by focusing on the problem itself. Making wellness the object of research instead of making life an object to expand on
In a blank page I also wrote, what if the mistake is assuming the problem should occupy the center of attention at all?
anxiety → remove anxiety → become well
instead of
life contains anxiety → but attention belongs elsewhere
I could only begin to wonder what kind of life do I want, even with anxiety present?
Suddently the dream became reality. Truthfully I could shift the focus or have no focus at all...some sort of side-effect goals phenomena — certain states (peace, meaning, confidence, happiness) often appear while pursuing something else rather than these being pursued directly. A bit like when person B may end up less dominated by anxiety—not because they healed it directly, but because they stopped organizing perception around it, as they focused on building a meaningfull life-for example
So if someone constantly attends to:
- optimization
- healing
- symptoms
- self-analysis
those become their obtuse landscape...
But what if they stopped their laser-precision thinking, and started feeling... tending to other things...Not even tending! but letting the air flow around friendship, craft, beauty, curiosity, play... life then may suddenly reorganize itself around those instead...
Perhaps to be fully awake is to dream the deepest change coming not from solving the center—but from (re)moving the center, displacing it, reconverting it, morphing it, vaporising it...Only then we stop dreaming and catching a full breath might mean we are grounded at the highest, tallest level possible