This is a short text on the idea of anxiety, dependence and interpersonal autonomy.


This is a short text on the idea of anxiety, dependence and interpersonal autonomy.


Why interpersonal autonomy? I tell you why, and it has to do with the idea of anxiety.
Having grown in a fairly isolated and isolating environment, I have realized that the idea of losing control or command over a given situation provides me with anxiety. My facing of situations in which my skills fail to show command or control over the situations make anxious and make me fill like the outcome wont be crafted to the amount of love and care I am willing to give. Lame, right? Well...actually not.

It is in small, controllable environments where the minute and the contingent can be minimized that I thrive. It makes sense that I am hoping to find a collective force that effortlessly couples with my creative intentions/expressions. I am finding it hard to achieve, as this intention requires collaboration and a delegation of tasks, which carries a certain amount of risk, the risk of being lost in translation.

Obtaining a certain degree of autonomy means gaining a certain degree of personal comfort and space. Dependence is in detriment of this individual practice and intensifies the idea of dealing with. When this relationship of dependence is heightened, anxiety overtakes me and I find difficult to cope with any other person other than me (believe me I'm enough for myself).
Perplexingly this goes against a practice of life that I like to call expansive and requires the subjective individual to shift from his position to that of the others. This is not achieved in an osmotic manner, rather it requires a phenomenological approach to the everyday: the experiencing of situations in one own's flesh to understand from a subjective point of view, that requires no exterior recalling. The expansive experience of life requires the constant self-labeling as an amateur, as accumulated experience or the idea of the experienced implies an accumulation of repetitive knowledge, or knowledge that is constantly performed. It is difficult to tell the young that experience is useless, as it constitutes a form of contractive practice, where otherness is the realm of the unknown.

We might argue that being expansive presupposes a personal equivalence between subjects, as the emphatic moment occurs after undergoing an actual experience. For this is a practice that might be called kind in nature. But as I have experienced, the situations in which we encounter our embodied thinking matter is constantly shifting and is constantly affected by its very actual form, sculpted by the passage of time and the storing of memories. One's own cultural context provokes the speaker to speak in certain way, to eat in a certain way and invariably to see the world trough a certain set of eyes (Nazism). To avoid this on directioness it is necessary to become expansive and to be able to shift between the subjective, the objective, the specific to the generic. And it is true that when we reach this moment of delightful, non-contingent and secure abstraction we have managed to reach a delusion, that of internal peace, proven that reality or what constitutes reality -our knowledge and conception of it- is ordered and admits no chance for the intrusion of chaos.

This brings me to the idea of reality and realism as it is treated on the contemporary writing of architectural theory, specifically in Tahl Kaminers work, where realism is the uncritical acceptance or absorption of what is perceived to be reality into the design process. This uncriticality is pinned down by a terrifying ideological fundamentalism, that reality is an existing entity-one-, and that there is no alternative to it-two-.

Obviously there is no easy job, and as a pedantic creative I am hoping to project my creative ideal into the real world, as an alternative rather than a solution. This might sound like constant head banging against a solid wall, but it is the hope that an aesthetic project has a social, economic and political impact, this is, the irremediable effect of non-liability in enabling larger than life conceptions or experiences. From this conceptual isolation of the mind, to realism, anxiety seems to emerge from an intense will to exist abstracted in the world or a continuous experiencing of frustration by this codependency between the imaginary and the real.

On housing supply/affordability/international investment

After reading Latour's Laboratory Life I have understood something quite beautiful, which is the power of culture in naturalizing cultural phenomena. By this I mean how in the context of Latour's examination of this particular laboratory it becomes clear how the fact is in fact constructed rather than discovered, as if it was Nature waiting to be discovered.

This has an impact in language, as the scientific fact is no longer discovered but rather constructed. This opens up a lot of possibilities for the development of criticality or what I like to think of hypercriticality, which is the disorder that I am trying to understand as a-detrimental-condition of mine. In rediscovering the scientific fact as a construction, culture at larger becomes an apparatus or an invention, rather than a naturalized institution, which also denotes, because of the wording, some sort of act of fabrication (institutional).


nature   ≠   culture

It is in fact true that we live in a schizophrenic culture, for it pushes those under the rules of global labour under a series of situations hard to endure. I am talking about information overload and multitasking which contribute to the disorder of the mental (case here).

It is recommended to become a curator of our own life, however bourgeoisie that might sound. Editing the unnecessary out, which also involves editing people out. This comes as no surprise and it is related to the idea that flows need control for focus to emerge, and there illumination.

The current technologies of communication allow for a fast spread of information, which is most of the time useless eesssddadyy   wwhattata mmimimimigaggatgvjrhgvjhbansfd isdrhgiuiuyyusdhbkjsdnkdjkdsbdsanbf;klsndsga;nn dsm,nagdsndfgndfskjlhadfkjhhfdgkdsfadsgf;dfs;dsf; chichcichcihcihcihczozozoopewqrobgtqwerjhhreherhejnefiosadFIASA9AIAIIaiaai

Muriel Baumgartner

Mansilla Tunon

Petra Kempf      You are the City

Who's funding WHO? 

Life would be easier if everyone I spoke to had Peter Eisenman's nerve and energy...

Not necessarily looking for consensus here, or even depth. Sometimes pretending you care makes the trick, but at least a pinch of passion.

I am a dedicated person and therefore I want to surround myself with dedicated people. No mediocrity.

I can't stand middle class conformism or shopping habits.

And tired of my ass hurting (I am undergoing/enduring an anal fissure).

In conclusion I am annoyed by all of that yo know, and I won't allow myself to seat trough it but to ignore it neither. It has the time to confront mediocrity, maybe by shouting in this midst of pacification/consensus/conflict-averse culture, those who don't want to dip you know. It is the time for a bit of an action movie, a bit of chopping, a bit of slicing.

Tired of complaining and I'm only 22

Interstitial ≠ parallel

The difference between interstitial and parallel not to be confused. 
If we think of a managerial practice that tries to avoid schizophrenia; pick your bucket of obligations and liaise with them one by one. 

In this context to "run things in parallel" has to do with the ability of a subject to start and get involved in a variety of projects/obligations without terminating them as soon as they've been started. The key ability here is not only to focus, but to refocus; to be able to effectively shift between tasks. For this focusing can be productive in the realisation of a project but might be detrimental if the ability to shift is not exercised, as too much energy might go into solving this one problem and not addressing others, i.e. Having a "general picture". 

This shifting aims at a holism that requires a balance of parts, but not of all of them; rather of the relevant parts, which are paramount to monitor and keep an eye on. 
Keeping an eye on the matters to treat means an attention span that requires alertness throughout the day coupled with an availability of required materials. The identifying of functional or productivity gaps is enabled by this alertness which also makes sure that tools are at hand; i.e. Pen and a pencil, and makes use of this interstitial gaps in the working day. Then we can say we are making the most of the day by working continuously towards the achievement of a defined goal. This in-between time makes us works in parallel and serves to clean up or advance tasks that require imminent completion. 

Brian Housden photographed by Charles Hosea