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Yes we know writing is pedagogic...

I didn't want to reason today. I wanted the sound to penetrate my skin like the love of your eyes.

Funny you write about  feeling. How can you conceptualize a feeling. Or appropriate touch?

I know, this is deemed to fail.

Maybe you post some mechanically recorded performance to evoke a feeling? maybe it was well captured? Maybe that would do?

I have been waiting to experience this for a long time. Instead I am writing about this.
Its easy to write in my innocuous blog about it. Its sealed and contains no contingency. Maybe they switch off the serves to prevent me from propagating my radical thoughts/imagery?

Yes, you are trying to experience the immeasurable by measuring it, with words. You are ready to fail.
Are you scared to feel? or to fail? or both?
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I am scared of rejection. I am scared of what other people might think. I know life goes fast. I can't wait until is late. I want to experience all that I lost in infancy trough isolation.

So now is infancy who is guilty of your reality? Again this is getting too conceptual. Can you keep it simple? Can you go out the window; feel the air?